Participation

I have countless new readers these days, thanks to various links. I want to make clear that I have been thinking and writing about these issues – the changes and turmoil that have followed the Second Vatican Council – for years. Yes, we can say decades now. And just know, I take the long view. My degrees are in history, and history and literature are my interests, the way I take to understand these matters. So, yes, the long view.

I want to highlight a couple of links, and then republish an older post. I don’t feel badly about doing so because it was almost ten years ago, so there you go.

First, an essay I wrote for Church Life Journal reflecting on these matters through the prism of the novels of David Lodge – as well as my own personal experience.

Secondly, a post I published in 2008, a few months after Summorum Pontificum. I called it “Necessary Conversations” – and I think it’s still worth reading, not for what I wrote, but for what readers wrote. The center of a post was an image of a TLM, and I asked readers to just share what they saw when they looked at the image.

I think the comments are worth reading – people offering what they saw, in a safe space, as it were. Reverence? Distance? A musuem? Love?

My favorite, one that I think about often is and reflected on in a subsequent blog post is:

I see a man offering a sacrifice. The man has a cross on his back.

I also wrote a short story reflecting on a bit of this, a story that might annoy some, but here you go.

Finally this:

I ran across the following in my parents’ stash. Two books. Music books.

They belonged to Eva Langlois Desjardins, my great-aunt, who raised my mother.  She and her husband, Louis Desjardins, a dentist, had no children of their own, but took in my mother, her brother, and their mother – Eva’s sister – Marie Langlois Bergeron, after my mother’s father, Joseph, died in a car accident when my mother was six years old. Not too long after that, my grandmother had a nervous breakdown – I eventually learned she had attempted suicide – and moved to a rest home in Lewiston, where she lived for the next forty years or so.  So my mother always thought of Eva and Louis in parental terms. Anyway.

The lived in a small town in southern Maine.

Eva was one of the parish organists.  Louis played the violin and sang baritone.

Eva, like all of that generation preceding my mother, was born in Quebec of a middle class family.  She was educated through high school – a convent school, I believe. Not boarding, but run by a religious order of some sort.  So, that’s what she had, along with music lessons, I presume: a high school education.

She was the organist, as I said, in the parish in that small town. The music books I found are filled with notes for both her, the organist, and her husband, a singer and violinist. This was a Francophone parish, where my mother attended the parish school.  The parish which we attended, decades later,  on Sundays during our annual month-long visits.

Of course by the time I got there, and was sentient – the late 60’s and 70’s – things had changed.

I actually remember those Masses pretty vividly.  They made a big impact on me, and the impact was all about the music. I’ve never forgotten that music accompanying those Masses in the mid-70’s.

A tape recording of Glory and Praise piped through the loudspeakers.

And not a soul singing along.

I’ve talked to a lot of people who lived through and had awareness of the changes brought by the Council.  Some were heartbroken – I remember in particular one man who had converted right before Vatican II and expressed feeling as if he had been lied to and betrayed when the changes hit.  Others were elated and welcomed the changes that came.  Another older friend has expressed to me his experience of finding the religious experiences of his pre-Vatican II childhood and young adulthood dry and lifeless, and the vernacular liturgy and other changes, including for him, involvement in the Catholic charismatic movement, bringing a good kind of transformation – a deep connection to Christ and the Church, which he had not felt before. Life-saving, as he put it.

This post isn’t about rehashing all of that.

It’s just about these artifacts and memories. About a woman with a high school education and her well-worn and marked-up book of chant technique in Latin and French. It’s about a bit of an exercise in imaginative memory, as I wonder what Eva and Louis thought about as they sat there in the pews of their parish after the changes – for they did, indeed live through them – having been informed that for the sake of full and active participation of the faithful, their services were no longer needed, contemplating and remembering as the strains of a tinny recording of Sing to the Mountains wafted through a silent church.